less is more? the less the better.
if u have less content, u can choose the higher quality content. sometimes better present 1 good picture than 10 mediocre ones. sometimes better 10 mediocre ones. easier to focus on 1, i guess
i feel like i have a limited amount of keystrokes nowadays. a limited number of taps with which to impact the world around me. combination of trying to do too much work in too little time, and a history of repetitive strain injury. i'd better make great use of those keystrokes.
today i read a private blog post i made in 2014. you guys will never see it. i was an unrefined version of myself. i had the fire, the drive, but not the prioritisation. not the impact i wanted. i was too self-centred. you'll never hit your goals in the right way if you care too much about what other people think of you.
i've learned.
i don't write blog posts by dumping shit on the page anymore. that doesnt make anyone happy.
the fire of motivation comes and goes. it's a fire, of course it does. i had a few bad months where i didn't do shit and played hearthstone all day. anyway it's finally back and i won't let it go so easily this time.
i used to write all this shit that didn't matter that much. i wanted to keep every thought i had. i wanted to execute perfectly. if i lose thoughts they might never come back right?
i used to put off things bc i wanted to do them perfectly. i wrote long blog posts reflecting things i learned because that made me feel like i was making progress. 90% of the stuff i wrote maybe even 99% didnt make a difference. my first job was a brutal lesson that you spend a little too long on something and you're fucked.
i used to have people motivation. i used to be more excited about doing things for other people. where's that gone now? it's back, temporarily. maybe the best of me comes out when i have reasons to do things
i'm not gone yet, guys. the old davy is lurking somewhere behind a fog of shitty adulthood. wisodm teeth removal, 3 dentists and 5 fillings, 401k, rent, paid vacation, vaccinations, power bills, balancing social life with the unending tide of work the works. i'm not gone yet guys
on the topic of people motivation, shout out to my sick girlfriend emma who has better people motivation than me and everyone else and outperforms my gifts every time. gotta step up my game man. once emma told me to say no to people and stop worrying what they think of you. once she made me brownies while i was halfway across the world. what a life, man
i think im truly happy. man it's been awhile since i could say that
one last shout out to eunice, who is fighting for her life while i go around enjoying my days like my friend's not having her spirit crushed
after months of messing around, i feel like the best of davy is back for real. i know the feeling doesn't stay for long, so let's make use of it while we can.
watch me, guys. i'm gonna take on the world again, and this time i don't even have 1 minute to lose.
fucking davy stop losing minutes
<3
ReplyDeleteI'm looking forward to seeing the world taken over by Davy!
hope you are doing alright eunice!
DeleteI really dig this post!
ReplyDeleteso glad to hear you're truly happy ^^ adulthood can be pretty crappy but it sounds like you're doing a great job
take care of yourself!
thanks for the support athy! take care of yourself as well. i also hope your adult life is doing ok. do u get the sick teacher holidays or do u have to work through them
Deleteman keeping yourself healthy turns out to be really hard
I do get sick teacher holidays xD but I do also work through them!
Deletedepends if I work hard enough to bludge pretty much x:
it is hard - I have completely neglected eating healthy and sleeping healthy and exercise to work this year OTL so I feel you!
damn, working through all your holidays. even summer break?
Deleteyeah ikr man. my health has also gone to shit somewhat in my first 2 years of work, hoping to pick that back up sometime.
turns out being a responsible person is hard. what a life
and there's so much stuff to remember. got to drink enough water, do rsi exercises. wrist strength exercises, nerve glides, 30min cardio per day. brush and floss, water floss, mouthwash, clean and wear retainers
Deleteand all on top of work as well, what a life
not to mention posture exercises, haircuts/hair management, eye checks and gp checks, remembering to flip the mattress, eating nutritionally balanced meals...
Deletehaven't worn my retainers in a year x: when I wear them I get bad headaches and can't focus on work. screw health aspects of adulting, work is the only adulting I need! xD
I've been ignoring doing work this summer to work on myself and I'm going to regret it when I eventually start TT what a cycle
yeah ikr. it feels like it's a ft job just keeping yourself healthy
Deleteit's good that you are taking the summer tow ork on yourself. better regret work than regret health imo
i heard its common for teachers to burn themselves out in their first year bc they try really hard
hi!
ReplyDeletewhat a minimalist response!
Deletecan't believe you're still reading. good to hear from you again!
welcome back