The holidays

Today I looked in the mirror and I thought "my eyes look dull". And then I realised my eyes felt dull as well. My whole body felt dull. I felt dull.

I started this blog post without any particular topic in mind that I wanted to talk about, except maybe my dull-looking eyes. Perhaps I feel that the holidays are dull, despite the large amount of stuff that I've chosen to do.

I wonder if perhaps staying in a house all day and not talking to any people makes you dull. I guess I feel disconnected. Perhaps I am losing my sense of people as people. The world seems dull.

On another note (I like other notes), who's up for another blog outing?  
Dandelion suggested someone's house for board games and house-y stuff.

Because my world felt so dull, I decided to make something happy, to brighten it up.

The red candle merrily greets the blue one. Be friendly!

The candles will be good friends. And yes, the wings are the same wing as on the banner on the top of this page. I remember when I used to do photoshop a lot. That was when I used tumblr. I remember that. I remember learning how to use the pen tool just so I could draw these wings. I like those candles. It feels like they're my friends, too. Not that my world feels very much brighter, despite the optimism of the candles.

Maybe I'm spending too long on the computer

Maybe I'm going slightly mad, haha.

I'd always liked anthropomorphist stuff. It's always been as if all the objects around me have feelings, too. I often worry that my possessions feel neglected if I don't use them. I wrote two anthropomorphist short stories in year 10 for my halfyearly and yearly exam. I got 14 and 13, despite how terrible they were. The first one was about a frog, the second was about a cat. I do not want to read them again.

But I guess it's doubtful that I'll ever write one of those again, with all the teachers heavily recommending against it and me sucking at writing them.

About a week ago I had a dream that I got my english essay back and it was 7/15. This week I dreamt that I got my english essay back and it was 13/15. I don't know what that says about me and my modes of thinking. I'm certainly no more optimistic than I was a week ago.

I'm going to finish editing my nanowrimo soon, and then I'll upload it. Reading over it again, I wonder how I could have written such terribleness. Although I've mostly only reread the parts that I completely rushed. I think it could end up under 50k after I finish editing.

My sister got 98.90. She's not happy, because she wanted 99. She also stateranked PD. I would be happy if I stateranked PD. And then she told me that I should get much higher than her because she didn't do that much work, especially in terms of maths (3u).

I'll do some schoolwork, after I finish my google code-in task for SymPy (I have to document an anomaly in the library) and finish making the database program my dad wants me to do for his company.

I have a feeling the holidays are going to pass pretty fast. I'm glad of that. I want to go back to school. I'm looking forward to everything, from the year 12 camp to the composition of the biology class to waking up early for extension 2 maths.

If you haven't heard, my bio class is merging with the other bio class in our line. I don't know why. But before I heard about it one day I was wondering what would happen if the bio classes merged somehow and I was imagining seating arrangements and there was me in my seat and this person on the opposite table to the left. And then I was like "lol, as if that's going to happen". So when I heard about the merge I was like "WHAT THE ALSKDJIDOAWJDIOJ" and it felt a bit like a dream.

Do you like your dreams?

City/karaoke on thursday. I find myself practising singing a lot lately, using a pc-singstar program called ultrastar dx. It's quite fun. My sister usually beats me, though. I can only win with luck or on the songs I know better, like Aladdin's part of A Whole New World, Hero (Skillet), Just A Dream (Tsui version), or songs that are better suited to male vocals, such as I'll Make a Man Out of You, Comatose (I'm still unsure how I should pronounce it. comb-a-tose or corm-a-tose?), and Dynamite (suitability debatable in the high parts).

I still suck at I'm Yours and Soul Sister (to a lesser degree).

I guess I should go back to sympy. Only ~17 hours left to finish it and I'll spend much of those 17 hours sleeping. Apparently I have to "document why unpickling a singleton doesn't return the singleton object with protocol 0 and 1". If you don't know what that is, great, I have no idea either. Apparently the singleton is pi and when the protocol is wrong cos(pi)=cos(pi) when it should be cos(pi)=-1. Something like that. Perhaps IT is not the best career choice for me.